30) The Counsellor - 14th November

I knew a few days ago that I needed to "talk" to someone. Leigh-Ann, her sister, Earla and daughter, Sarah have been seeing a lady called Darlene for many years for spiritual healing. She is a "channeller". I am not entirely sure what that means but she is able to communicate with "Guides" from the "other side".

Like probably many men I am a cynic when it comes to this sort of thing but I am also open to being proven wrong. Regardless, in the situation I find myself in, I needed to talk to someone whatever their beliefs so I went to meet Darlene with Earla today.

Happy Days in Valencia 2013

She told me that I have three "Guides" and they were looking after me. She told me that I am very "guarded" and protective of my feelings and wants me to open up just a little. She is right, of course.

It wasn't as weird as I thought it would be and I found it really beneficial. She is a very wise person. How she got to have all this wisdom is a mystery to me but she made a lot of sense and helped me understand and accept what was happening and made me realise that the thoughts that I was having were normal.

Marrying a person that you know will soon die is strange but I love Leigh-Ann very much and this is a fitting end to what has been a wonderful, life changing relationship.

She has changed me for the better, she has made me happy and shown me what true love is all about. I have never met anyone as kind, as generous, as forgiving, as understanding and as loving as Leigh-Ann. She s truly a remarkable person with a truly remarkable family around her.

Being Leigh-Ann's husband for even a few weeks or months is a privilege and not my right. I feel very, very lucky to have the chance to be her husband for whatever time we have left together.